New Handicraft Project

Sitting at home and agonizing about this dizziness and hearing loss, it´s the best way to be hobby-ish.
In my cupboard I found a started crochet piece of a tablecloth or something you can put on a vase. I thought, this time, it would be perfect to finish it!
So I continued with crochetting:

 

Autumn is in Vienna already....

Sorry for my long silence...I am fighting with one of my worst days and it´s getting on my nerves.
While having slight dizziness, my left ear was diagnosed with Morbus Meniére too and I got the order from my doctor to take Betaserc 24mg tabletts again.
The summing and the terrible dizzy attack is holding back now but there is a feeling that they are still fighting against the tabletts.
And this week I got the strange feeling that my left ear is getting worse! I lost my hearing ability to hear deep tones like a driving car, men´s voices or even a TV!
It´s driving me crazy!
I don´t have any clue what this means.
Should I have another hearing loss? No way!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To stay calm and say the mantra "Oooohhhhhhhmmmmmmm" is stupid in this moment! It´s not the time to stay calm!
Gladly I am in the AKH again at Wednesday and I will tell the doctor this strange hearing loss.

While having worries about my future, I try to look out of the window and see this beautiful autumn chestnut tree:

 

Post-surgery troubles

Since day 0 I am suffering of a neck problem. If I move my head up and down there is a dizziness and the feeling of something like a pudding in my head.
I was afraid of a serious neck problem and it was getting worse since 26th September.
Today I went to a specialist of Applied Kinesiology who saved my life in May 2012 after I had to stay in bed for many days and the neck was revolting then.

The specialist explained that it´s a post-surgery trauma of a certain muscle behind the ear. This muscle was cut on the top of the ear and later sewed. The contraction on the lower part pulled the muscle from the neck. And this certain muscle is also connected with the cochlea - this means, if the muscle pull at the neck, he is also pulling on the cochlea! The balance is going overboard.

I hope, it will be better next days after the specialist worked on my neck.

 

Scrapbooking-Card

After a heavy dizzy attack in the morning, I felt smashed. The reason is the neck for sure, but also a new Morbus Meniere in the left ear because my eyes were rotating to the left side. Till this morning, they moved to the right ear.
With the surgery the fluid in the cochlea was removed and the Morbus Meniere ist going to the left ear.
This means, probably after surgery in the left ear somewhen this stupid disease might be over or what?

I am still fighting with nausea when moving my neck and before I die of boringness I made a Thank-You-Card in the style of scapbooking for my Japanese friend.

The last picture was made from a paper shopping bag of BILLA without a mask. I used a scissor for cross-stitching and tried to get the correct shape a little. I was surprised that it became this fine!
I should try it more.
 

A special Birthday Gift

I turned 36 years now - gosh, time flies.

And for first time in my life, I heard a bird!!! When I stepped out on my balcony to enjoy a little sunshine, I was wondering about a high-pitched sound as if somebody was clinking grandmother´s cocktail glasses like "gaa-gaa, gaa-gaa".
I looked around which might be the reason of this sound then I detected a blackbird on the tree opposite of my balcony.
And the sound matched with the moving of her pecker.
I was astonished!

FOR FIRST TIME OF MY LIFE I HEARD A BIRD!

And today´s my birthday! What a special birthday gift! Thanks to the CI and Opus2.

 

Day 7 with the Speech Processor

Yesterday I suffered my fourth dizzy attack after using the speech processor together with the hearing aid and I have the feeling that both of them are kinda enemies. They cannot work together!

Today I didn´t take the hearing aid and I feel far better - but I don´t hear anything except the high pitched sounds.
It´s better than a nerving dizzy attack - gladly tomorrow I am in the AKH again for the next adjusting of the speech processor. I will ask my doctor if this is normal to get dizzy attacks. Because I have to return to work soon and I don´t want to get problems because of a dizziness.

Now I will officially present you my audiogram in where you can see how bad my hearing is. Perhaps some day in the future I may present you the new audiogram of the right ear:

The short strokes in the middle is how much I hear with the hearing aid. Not impressive, because it´s really short!
 

A letter from the Past

10 years ago I wrote a letter for me! A letter which has to be opened at my 36th birthday and this is today.
Gosh, so many things happened 10 years ago!
From my trying to write a doctorate dissertation at the Archaeological faculty and the mobbing of the professors who never accepted my ethusiasm and tried to make me giving up.
Yesterday I had a very bad and low day and after reading this letter from myself from the past, I knew that I don´t have a reason to be down now because 10 years ago it was really a depressive year.
I felt better after reading and from today I will think absolute positive!

 The letter before opening.